some more ramblings..mostly about the sprouse twins

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i’ve decided i need to stop being so negative and post some actual happy journals every once in a while, but i already know this will maybe last a week and i’ll go back to being super negative. anyways, let’s pretend that’s not gonna happen.

i had an okay day today — like, i was even a lil happy, which is saying a lot for me. the first thing i did different was actually get ready for the day (i.e. do skin care and change my outfit), and then i spent time outside w my sis. who woulda thought doing self care and getting sun would improve my mood so much??? ha.

anyways, i deep cleaned the three (3) litter boxes so i am a lil tired since i’ve been cleaning for a couple hrs and have no stamina, but being outside w the hose brought me back to simple times. like when my older sisters would hook up the mini pool and we’d splash around on the patio. it’s bittersweet, of course, but mostly happy. at least for today.

for lunch, i made bibimyeon/bibimguksu (still not sure of the difference) — broke-and-clean-out-the-fridge edition. i boiled some buldak noodles (the 2x spicy kind) that were never going to get eaten, and made a quick sauce with equal spoonfuls of soy sauce, mirin, rice vinegar, and gochujang, plus half a spoon of sugar. a drizzle of sesame oil and the little flakes (seaweed and sesame seeds?) on top, and it was done. i split it with my sister. i actually quite liked it... very bouncy and refreshing. she didn’t love it cold, though, and ended up microwaving hers, which kind of defeated the whole purpose of cold noodles. but oh well.

still am enamored (sadly) with the suite life franchise and the twins right now, sorry... i even got my sis on board and we started watching the on deck series... though we both agree it’s not as funny as we thought when it aired. i think that’s the problem with rewatching childhood shows... but whatever, i’m still enjoying it.

i keep switching between seasons, episodes, and even series tho... idk why i can’t just watch everything in order. i still haven’t even completed a full rewatch of s1 of the hotel. but uhhh idk man, ngl i’ve just gone down a rabbit hole on the twins. i even made a whole draft of my thoughts on the whole call her daddy podcast fiasco with cole.. but hmm i don’t think i’ll let that one go public just yet.

dylan seems very cool tho. i saw he was in a chinese fantasy film and i’m thinking of watching it... just for him. tho fantasy isn’t really my genre sadly. i’m almost mad at myself for that since it’s so popular, especially among other writers, but i just personally can’t get That into it. (for the most part) i think i’m just too boring and uptight in a way — i’m always like “well, actually that would never happen irl 🤓☝️.” but like, THAT'S THE POINT!! i annoy myself.

if i look back at all my favorite childhood shows, they were all very very coming-of-age esque, while my sisters were more into whimsical stuff. hence our very big difference in media interests. 

anyways i’ve come to the realization that maybe another reason i’m kinda hyperfixated on the show and the twins (and kinda always have as i did have a week in 2020 where i got into them again lol) is that twin dynamics just really interest me since my younger sis and i are almost like that? i thought we were irish twins for the longest time since everyone said we were, but we’re actually not — i’m a year and 5 months older than her. still, that’s pretty close. though we were two grades apart since i started kinder at 4.

anyways, where was i going with this? oh... everyone in our family kinda treats us as one person. like, if she has an opinion, i might as well have the exact same one. if one of us does or says anything, it’s like both of us did. yet, almost simultaneously, they act like i’m 5 years older than her too. especially my dad. i think that’s why i love eldest daughter characters...

but anyways, i think we too just have an interesting sibling dynamic. though cole and dylan's seems much less... turbulent. like dylan explained his in an interview talking abt cole, where he said, “i can’t call him my best friend as we are so much more than that.” bc trueeeeee. how can one person be the only one who understands me, yet also the person who has said the most f-ed up shit to me? but i’d do anything to make sure she’s alright, yet i can’t say “i love you” bc that would be WEIRD.

and tbh younger her really looked like young cole sprouse too... i think it’s the front teeth and the slim face... she keeps saying it herself and now i can’t unsee it. i’ve always been the “bigger one”... plus, she kinda acts like cody too in a way... so idk, i just can’t stop comparing and analyzing us with the show characters and with the twins irl...

but speaking abt my interests... i’ve been trying (and failing) to get my kpop moots and my sis into hockey. no matter how many quinn hughes dissociating-on-the-bench clips i show her, it’s not working 😩. once i move to (redacted) and can actually go to games, it’ll be so over tho. she’ll love it too.

and i think all of the above is why i really like the hughes bros… like, i’m fr when i say i’m obsessed with sibling dynamics in any media i can get… it’s a problem.



i need to wrap this up… i got way too carried away lol. right now i’m gonna go through all my old drafts and attempt to make a decently formatted post of all my current wips and hopefully get that out soon. though i have so many… and most are ideas/premises that first popped into my lil brain back in 2020.