try not to save "my five" challenge: failed (tremendously)

anyways, on a better note and a more recent diary than last… yeonjun’s recent thanks letter regarding the other members— do u mind if i scream and gush for a bit? bc oh i am just wound up with so so so many emotions. first i wanna talk abt something the lovely translatingtxt admin talked abt, but in the last couple of days/weeks yeonjun has used old nicknames for both kai and soobin… “ning” and “bin.” and there is something abt kai being called ningning that makes my heart hurt so so so much, bc i think i just correlate it to bby 2019 txt, and i’ll forever be a lil salty that it took like 6 yrs for the fandom to be able to regularly use his actual name instead of calling him huening… as he has said he much prefers kai. anyways this isn’t a negative post so lemme shut up. but ning!!! ningning!! i wanna shout it from the rooftops. ok sorry it’s just a lil nickname, but like i said, it reminds me so much of bby txt dynamics…specifically sookai.

also the lil messages he wrote to all and the pictures he included. let me copy and paste the translation from translatingtxt

“thank you to kai, who came carrying so many gifts, cheered me on throughout the pre-recording and the live broadcast and went above & beyond when i said let’s take fun pictures

thank you to bin, who must’ve been exhausted from doing schedules throughout the day right from the morning but ran over as soon as it was over to cheer me on

thank you to beomgyu, who came to cheer me on so early the day after he came back from japan

thank you to taehyun, you cheered me on from afar even though he couldn’t make it. and hang in there…i’m cheering you on from afar too

thank you to my little brothers. you always pick only the cutest things to lift up my spirits. keep doing that. now let one of you release a solo album. i’ll be happier than anyone and cheer the loudest;; i love you, you lovely punks”

like, those are his babies!! that is their mathyung!! and not to make everything all abt kai, but sorry, he is my ult and i’m just even more extra soft for yeonkai dynamics—or just eldest and maknae dynamics in general… but his message to kai was just so fond? and at times like this i wish i could properly read korean and be fluent so i could just hear and see the cadence in which they speak instead of relying on translations. but oh my gosh… i can still hear the affection.

i’m just thinking abt the vid of kai surprising jjunie on the ggum set, yeonjun’s genuine, utterly surprised reaction, and the way kai always makes himself small when hugging his hyungs, since back when he was a trainee he only reached their chests!! ok, i need to breathe.

and then the pics he chose for all the members!! goofing off with kai but still always holding on and being a safety point so kai doesn't get hurt… i keep thinking abt that moment in to do when bby kai fell out of his chair and almost hit his head, and jjunie was the only one who noticed and semi-panicked. like ok i'm getting carried away and it's not that deep!

him carrying beomgyu!! the poses with bin, which again—do u mind if i scream abt the usage of binne-ah?? always making sure to leave no one out and praising and cheering on taehyun as always… which, taejun… i feel like i could make a whole post abt them one day.

and i just so believe him when he says he’d be happier than anyone when the other members release their projects… like txt is just so filled with love for each other, but i especially see it in the way yj and taehyun love the team as a whole. they looove tubatu so much.

responses to high stress situations...

( rant abt a small Thing that happened today )