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seasideficsalso my skills are basically the same as they were back then,,, actually much worse. i'm sure there are like lil middle schoolers beating me with their editing skills, and i've never been very good at this (like when i tried to rebrand as an edit acc in 2018 with my bts insta acc… it did not go well..) but all that matters is i'm having fun!
account is riyahhhh. (but seriously my designs look like a pre teen made them in the yr 2013. not good)
also i'm kinda going down a rabbit hole back to my high school self because bad bunny has reinvigorated my interest in latin trap and reggaeton.. what do you know abt maluma and ozuna?? but also, when i was in spanish 2 we had a semester-long project where we studied all the latin american countries, and you and a partner were assigned one country(territory) and had to give a ~15 min presentation. me and valerie got puerto rico, so i had to do a little research on bad bunny since he was popping even back then, and i mentioned him and daddy yankee and played their songs. anyways watching the halftime performance (i was a couple days late since sunday was not a good day for me.. very long story short i ended up with pretty bad heat exhaustion..) and god i just feel like i'm being transported back to 2016–2018.
tried to get my sister to watch it with me but it's just not her style so she didn't pay any attention. we couldn't be more different yet so alike if we tried.
also i'm realizing i really miss my spanish 2 class. like i actually somehow ended up advancing to spanish 3 and the year prior the teacher encouraged me to try to take the national test that basically means you're fluent? idk my memory is so spotty but uhm my spanish 3 teacher kinda sucked and we seriously just watched movies dubbed in spanish all day (mainly shrek. we watched all 3 like 5 times) and sometimes even in english.. like i was honestly grateful at the time bc yay no work but i totally regressed, forgot all my spanish, and basically undid all the progress from spanish 2.
and in spanish 2 i had a great student teacher. even though i absolutely hated it at the time because of social anxiety, and because i had a really bad speech impediment until like 8 where i couldn’t pronounce r or “th” sounds (so yeah i kinda picked the worst language, but i wasn’t about to do french or german), i was forced to speak every single day. and i hate that it actually helped me in every way, both with my anxiety and even making friends in class. and that at one point i was even recommended to take ap classes and that test because of how fluent i became.
god, all of that feels like a lifetime ago, and i mean, it kinda was. 2017 was 9 years ago.... and i just forget how many different “versions” of me there were, i guess? like, i really was such a different person in high school, in my fashion, my music taste, my interests, and i just forget that i was like that. does that make sense?
like, i was talking to sis and i totally forgot that i had a huge (way too long) soundcloud mumble rap phase(2016-2019) where all i did was repost sad bart simpson mood edits. i don’t know, i was very cringey but i also had a personality, yk.
i don’t even know what i’m like now. i feel like i have no personality. i don’t even listen to music much anymore. like, yes, i’m a kpop stan so you’d think i’d be listening to it every day, but i don’t even listen to it in a months spand sometimes. like what are even my interest? kpop (but not as much) and hockey ? and the majority of people in my family don't even know that about me...
idk, sorry i didn’t mean to go on such a big tangent reminiscing, but it’s kind of all i’ve been doing since what happened, because thinking about and living in the past is a lot better than being in the present and thinking about the future
