02/17/26 riyah’s random thoughts and ramblings of the day

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i paced for about an hour and a half once i woke up and had a cup of coffee this morning. i need to make that my daily routine again, as it was just a month or two ago. it's just hard on the weekends since my brother and nephew are typically on the living room couch, so i can’t exactly do my normal route. though i suppose i could go outside like a normal person… still, it put me in a much better mood and i actually had some energy for a few hours. thought, that quickly went away after i did all the chores...

it’s been rainy the past two days as well (there was a lot of thunder last night), and i’m craving carne guisada so bad… but instead we’re having a kimchi stew with beef and broccoli fusion meal? idk if that’s been done before, but it’s what my brother made, so we’re gonna be eating that for the next few days. not that i’m complaining — i like it and am excited to have a huge jar of kimchi on hand. i do kinda feel bad for my sister though, since she doesn’t like it and it seems we’re gonna be having it often.

my kitties have also been sleeping with me lately. every morning now i wake up and one is in between me and the wall, and then the other is on the other side right next to my head. it makes me smile first thing in the morning. i don’t even know when they do it, since they’re never there when i’m awake… they do love me <3, just in a tsundere way.

 

my sister and i also got along well this morning and actually chatted. now that i think of it, maybe that’s why i’ve been in an okay mood… just saying and typing that kinda scares me though, because it seems anytime i admit that out loud, something happens in the next couple of hours that completely sets me back (like what happened two days ago). anyways, we talked about degrassi, surprisingly enough. her whole fyp is filled with eli goldsworthy and eclare edits for some odd reason, and that was my otp and one of my first childhood celebrity crushes. i think she wants to watch it now, since when we were kids i kept telling her she was too young to be watching it, like i wasn’t a little 9 year old myself. i have such a specific memory of it being on the tv, and it was the episode where holly j was having a pregnancy scare, so i stood in front of the tv while she was watching and was all, “you shouldn’t be watching this. you’re too young,” with my arms folded over my chest. something she still teases me about, because i really had no right acting like that lmao.

anyways wow, i really started teen nick early… i’m honestly very thankful i found degrassi at such an early age though, because i think it made my personality change way for the better. i’m not proud to admit it, but i was very closed-minded and just very… judgmental as a child. i don’t know why, because my younger sister was never like that and even my dad was never hardcore about it... but yeah, i was just very stuck in a traditional mindset with gender roles. now that i think of it, it might’ve been my oldest sister A who taught me that, since even now all she does is generalize how women are like this and men are like that, etc. i do remember being like idk 6 or 7 and this neighborhood boy named peter (that i and all my friends had crushes on) was wearing pink, and i opened up my stupid loud mouth and said, “why are you wearing that? isn’t that a girl color?” and he shut me up with, “boys can wear it too… anybody can wear it!” king… i wonder how he’s doing and what he’s like now…
 

anyways i love degrassi, especially the next generation series since that was my introduction to the franchise. luckily i started watching right when season 10 started airing, and that was when eli was introduced! i did keep watching through next class, but the previous generation really has my heart. i legit cried when eli’s class had their graduation and moe sang “time of my life.”

okay now i really wanna rewatch. i’ll see if my sister wants to do it tomorrow, though i fear the answer is probably no, since today was kind of an outlier where she entertained me and let me yap.


i think i’m gonna make a hot cup of tea or hot chocolate because my hands are absolutely freezing!! and then i’m gonna pace for another hour or two once everyone’s gone to bed…