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small rant meant for stan twt, but i don’t feel comfortable sharing my thoughts there so i’m just gonna say it here instead. i’m not gonna lie, the recent video about kai has me kinda uneasy. the last time i was stanning someone whose private life got invaded that badly, it was seunghan—and i think most kpop fans know how horrendous and vile that whole situation was. i don’t think hueningkai’s will get that bad since he’s in his 7th year and kmoas don’t play about him, so i already see him being defended way more than what happened with taehyun. but idk, i just really hope this doesn’t blow up to the point where he has to address it or apologize.

it’s barely 7 a.m. in sk right now, so everyone’s probably just waking up to it, which sucks. by talking about it i’m probably bringing more attention to it, sorry—i’m just a little nervous it’s gonna turn into a whole mess. i feel really bad though, he’s already so private and vague about his personal life outside of being an idol, and now this happens...

like i think i’m just getting flashbacks to when a “scandal” happens and the whole intl tl is laughing—like soobin’s toe thing or the 97line itaewon 2020 situation—and then the very next day things get really serious and it’s not funny anymore. and with this new precedent of sending literal funeral wreaths to idols… let me not even speak that into existence, bc i will actually leave kpop if that happens again.

anyways, i just hope kai is okay and that it’s not affecting him in the slightest, and that he had a happy chuseok. same with the girl in the video and lea, since she’s sadly been dragged into this mess too.

at times like this, i kinda miss being a western pop stan girlie, bc while it was very much toxic in its own way, celebrity dating was way more normalized. like, nobody would bat that much of an eye if this were to happen to someone like harry. i wouldn’t have any fear that he’d have to apologize or be kicked out.

like, i’m probably just being super dramatic and nothing will actually happen, but like i said… PTSD from being a Seunghan stan, i guess :(

edit 10/09/25: he ended up apologizing.. my heart is breaking. i think i was right to have this ill feeling from the beginning, since it’s giving me flashbacks to wonbin writing that letter without company permission to explain his feelings.. although for very different reasons. like the image of kai being all alone and reading all his biggest “supporters” talking so much about his 'lack of sincerity'... and how he was probably told to act like nothing happened, but saw how angry everyone was, so he felt like he had to be honest at 3am... and that he kept apologizing for lacking and saying he doesn’t care about himself, only the members, company, and moa... god, my heart is breaking.

i feel like we’ve never seen him unravel like that... i’m just so worried. especially since he wrote it in the middle of the night... god, having to apologize for being seen with someone of the opposite sex outside a bar... what has the world come to?