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i have been so bad with replying to comments and entries. i'm so sorry. i don't want to sound like i'm making excuses, but i think i'm falling back into old pandemic-era patterns where i take a little too long to reply to people, and then i get way too into my own head and convince myself it's been too long to respond. then even more time passes, and it just keeps getting harder and harder to hit send because, in my brain, i've already missed the moment. by the time it's been a month or more, it feels weird to suddenly reply when the conversation happened so long ago... but then it also feels is rude to just ghost people.

i'm really not trying to ignore anyone, and i'm sorry for that's how it may be coming across. i'm just way too stuck in my own head rn. ik i ruined and hurt a lot of relationships during the pandemic because of this exact pattern, and i really need to nip it in the bud before i end up like this again for years.