permanent brain fog [vent]
Dec. 21st, 2020 06:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seasideficsjust a little venting diary entry since I don't really have anywhere else to voice my thoughts.
but boy am i struggling,,,with thinking out of all things. like you know that whole meme "no thoughts head empty "? yeah, that's been me for the past year.
i think something may seriously be wrong with my brain or something bc i literally can't think....
every time i try to focus on one subject...my mind just pulls up blanks. i thought it was because i haven't been sleeping well for the past..well honesty year...but here i am- loaded on caffeine from 3 iced coffees and a cup of tea for good measure- and nada. i can't think past the basic level of anything.
it's like there's this fog or haze over everything i do. i genuinely can't remember what i have done all day... i don't remember what i had for breakfast (or even if i ate it), dont remember if i went outside or not, i just don't remember anything that i may have gotten up to throughout the day.
i'm kinda getting worried bc it's been like this the past year? only it's gotten much worse the past 2 months or so.
i tried talking to my sister about it, but even then i can't seem to put it into words. i doubt i'm making any sense here.
ugh, i just feel...drained. which makes absolutely no sense since all I've done is lay around.
the whole reason i wanted to start writing again was because of this. figured it would somehow "awake " my brain and i'd be able to get out of this funk. but how am i supposed to write when i can't even think clearly? the two go hand in hand together smh.
anyway if this doesn't get any better in the next coming weeks i think I'll make a doctors appointment. i don't wanna continue feeling like this. it's getting in the way of everything.
hopefully, the next time you hear from me, i'll be making articulate full sentences.
but boy am i struggling,,,with thinking out of all things. like you know that whole meme "no thoughts head empty "? yeah, that's been me for the past year.
i think something may seriously be wrong with my brain or something bc i literally can't think....
every time i try to focus on one subject...my mind just pulls up blanks. i thought it was because i haven't been sleeping well for the past..well honesty year...but here i am- loaded on caffeine from 3 iced coffees and a cup of tea for good measure- and nada. i can't think past the basic level of anything.
it's like there's this fog or haze over everything i do. i genuinely can't remember what i have done all day... i don't remember what i had for breakfast (or even if i ate it), dont remember if i went outside or not, i just don't remember anything that i may have gotten up to throughout the day.
i'm kinda getting worried bc it's been like this the past year? only it's gotten much worse the past 2 months or so.
i tried talking to my sister about it, but even then i can't seem to put it into words. i doubt i'm making any sense here.
ugh, i just feel...drained. which makes absolutely no sense since all I've done is lay around.
the whole reason i wanted to start writing again was because of this. figured it would somehow "awake " my brain and i'd be able to get out of this funk. but how am i supposed to write when i can't even think clearly? the two go hand in hand together smh.
anyway if this doesn't get any better in the next coming weeks i think I'll make a doctors appointment. i don't wanna continue feeling like this. it's getting in the way of everything.
hopefully, the next time you hear from me, i'll be making articulate full sentences.
